mess

So, today after work I decided to go to Silver Moon and sit outside and enjoy the amazing weather.  I ordered an iced chai latte and a chocolate croissant and immediately was lost in the book I'm reading called Irresistible Revolution by Shane Claiborne.  So I'm reading about Shane's life and how is trying to make sense of authentically living out the way of Jesus- knowing that this is my deepest heart's cry too.  A few minutes later, I noticed a lady a few yards away from me on the sidewalk, calling out, "Can you give me something to eat please," every few moments to distracted New Yorkers on their way home from work.  This went on for a while as I tried to keep reading about how to live out my Christian faith.  Then she left. End of story. 

God, I'm such a mess.  Forgive my passive-ness.